A Brief Recap

So I realized it's been just about a month since I have written anything about my crazy life. And going off of my last entry all you have been updated on is my obsession with denim. Hmm, that doesn't really tell you much about my life, other than I am a FREAK :)


The short story:


I start school today! GUH! YIKES! WOW! and a GULP! THIS is what I WANTED. I'm so excited to be back in the classroom setting. I have missed Corban College everyday since I have left, so a huge part of me will finally feel content with this exciting day. I am enrolled in a Dental program so my primary focus will obviously be Dental... I think the transition from having multiple subjects of study to just one, will be quite challenging since it's all you will be learning. I get bored really easily if I stay on one thing for too long, so I just pray that this will hold my interest long enough (which, i'm sure it will). I will be in the night program from 6-10 ugh.. i'm so NOT a night person, but this will be a good thing, so WOO HOO for school!


Eric (my boyfriend) has been looking at buying a house for the past month or so... I have sadly seen so many houses that now when I drive down a road and see the street name signs I can actually tell you how many houses are for sale on that street and know exactly their sqr footage... PATHETIC. A little pitch for Real Estate, if you ever need to look for a house. Use the http://www.tb.com/ website. It's amazing to search for specific things.


Tomorrow (Friday) is my last day of watching my little nephew Jack.

He has been my little buddy since I started watching him when he was only 6 months old (he is now 15 months). So needless to say he is a huge part of my life as I am in his... so knowing that tomorrow is my last day of being his full time "nanny", to just being Aunt Chrystal who will rarely have time to come see him, makes me sad. I have experienced so many moments of motherhood because of this child, he has taught me so much, just as I have taught him his first words to how to play peek-a-boo to how to drink from a straw. He is my own little work of art, so letting go will definitely be a struggle. However, this is my decision, I can't be a full time nanny to my little love and have my head in the game for school as well.

Anyway, that's what's going on! xoxo-C

Jeans, Jeans, Jeans... and Jesus

Have you ever had a bad day and can't wait to go do the one thing that can always cheer you up... you know, maybe it's going out for ice cream or watching the newborns in the maternity ward (yes, that was a Grey's Anatomy reference). Some people like to call a close friend and vent, or go for a run. I, being the shopaholic that I am, love to buy jeans. Not just any jeans... no, it has to be Seven for all Mankind, True Religion, Citizens of Humanity, Rock and Republic, Hudson's... Call me shallow, I can admit, I HAVE A PROBLEM.

Buying a new pair of these AWESOME but WAY too expensive jeans, makes me feel beautiful. It's amazing how the perfect back pocket embroidery can make you want to live in them! How the very essence of a designer label makes you feel worthy.

Why? Because you spent an arm and a leg just so when people look at your butt they know how much you spent? Or that you have money? Why is it?

I ask myself that every time I decide to buy a new pair... being that I already have over 60+ pairs of jeans... why? why Chrystal do you feel like you need THIS pair of jeans? The answer is simple. I feel empty. I feel completely worthless... and for the split second that I put on a new pair of jeans and look in the mirror, I feel like I have everything.

Being a Christian, is hard for me sometimes. I know only Jesus can satisfy all these holes in my life. I could buy everything in Nordstroms and still not be happy with my life. I guess it's more of a rush of being something better than I see myself being. WHICH IS STUPID! Who put the idea in every ones head that designer jeans make you better? Darn you Hollywood with all your glitz! Guh! It's so frustrating at times.

Anyway, this blog is completely random and pointless, and by no means will I stop buying the jeans I love... I guess what I need to start looking for is adding more Jesus in my life and not just the next amazing back pocket stitch.

Late Nights, Early Church Services and a Birthday!

So those of you who follow me on Twitter/Facebook, know that I went mini golfing last night at Wonderland. So you might have also heard that I got a hole-in-one! First one out of our group! woo hoo! So naturally for the next hole I was feeling a little high on my horse and possibly a little over confident... and that's my excuse for hitting my ball so hard that it jumped the wall and went straight in to the magical castle mote.... dangit! That's what you get for show-boating Chrystal!

It was a good night though. It was nice to be out and about with friends and having good fellowship as opposed to always going to a movie where you can't carry on a conversation without the person behind you "shushing" you and "accidently" kicking the back of your chair. Not like that has ever happened to me.... :) No really... it hasn't, that would be RUDE.

So however late our Saturday nights may go, there is always that creeping feeling in the back of my mind that church starts at 9:00 a.m. Guh. That's early! Although I am blessed enough to attend a church that is so amazing, no matter how tired I am, I get up and go... even though I have to leave my house at 8:30 a.m. So what if I have to hear my annoying alarm beeping at me for 5 mins at 7... i mean 7:30... okay okay I slap snooze until 8:00 a.m! Who needs to shower before church anyway? It's not like they are judging me based on my personal hygiene.. wait.. :)

Today is my lovely nieces 8th Birthday! So Happy Birthday Alyssa Brianne! I can't believe she has been in my life for 8 wonderful years!













Can't wait for Chucky Cheese :) Where a kid can be a kid!!

xo C

Gravity

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on
The ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down.

Keeping me down.

You're on to me, on to me
and all over...

Something always brings me back to you
it never takes too long

Rainy Days

There is something about this weather that makes me feel so calm. Sitting on our awesome leather couch that Johnny bought from Craigslist (did I mention it's BRIGHT teal:), I sip on my coffee and stare out the window. Lately I have been feeling really down. I guess in all honestly I haven't been "up" in about a year. That's a long time to be questioning your life everyday. I feel much like this dying leaf I am watching blow around on the street. It's heading so fast forward and then in a blink of an eye it's rapidly turning another direction and another, and another.... .and another... soon you watch it just spinning in circles, heading up and slamming back down again. Poor leaf.

I like the silence though. A quiet morning with nothing but the sounds of the world around you. I wish it would rain again.....